Pinball wizard

My mind is like a pinball game with a hundred different paddles and bumpers that my mental ball can ping off of at any moment.  And ping it does.   One never knows in which direction it will head next – from what happened on a sitcom last night to the nuances of interpersonal communication when a power differential exists…from how much I love potato pancakes to an analysis of what a flat tax rate would mean…from a simple hello to a commentary about the role of kindess in a civilized society…oh yes, it pings here, there and everywhere.  I can be maddening – indeed, I used to wonder and even worry about something being wrong with me.  For those of you currently screaming at the screen, “There is something wrong with you!” – yes, I note there likely is.  Alas, I don’t worry about it any longer.

I realize that it can be exhausting for others to keep track of where my mind is going.  I have seen the exasperation on folks’ faces when I am six positions away from the original topic when they remain (like normal folks) on the topic at hand.   I also realize that the concentration deficit has an impact on me.  It takes a whole lot for me to completely immerse in something whether it requires my focused mind or not (hence, I have real difficulty with committing two hours to a movie).  I am the classic example of a “Look over there!” mind.

But I must say, as maddening as it can be some days, I actually like my pinball game mind.  I have learned to use it to my advantage (for the most part) and it takes quite a bit to bore me…there is always another mental tangent to wander off on.  It is a handful to have so much going on inside my head all the time, but I see and think about so much more stuff like this which makes the way I interpret the world that much more dynamic.  Ultimately, I wouldn’t trade it for a simpler game like Connect Four,  Battleship, or Kerplunk…ultimately, it makes me uniquely who I am.

So there you have my self-love entry for my new year’s resolution for this week…I am a pinball wizard. 😉

Day nine hundred and sixty-four of the new forty – obla di obla da

Ms. C

About Ms. C

I teach at NDSU...but I remain a student of life with all the enthusiasm that entails. My favorite saying is, "Sometimes you have to take the leap and build your wings on the way down." In the new forty that is what I am doing...building my wings.
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One Response to Pinball wizard

  1. Barbara says:

    My dear, you missed mentioning one aspect of Pinball Brain Syndrome–or perhaps you were not aware that it can be quite contagious. Surely I am not the only one of your readers to find that their own brains have taken up Pinging. I am not the least bit concerned about this condition. I find it to be invigorating, in fact. My kids, on the other hand………

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