Pinball Wizard

My mind is like a pinball game with a hundred different paddles and bumpers that my mental ball can ping off of at any moment.  And ping it does.   One never knows in which direction it will head next – from what happened on a sitcom last night to the nuances of interpersonal communication when a power differential exists…from how much I love potato pancakes to an analysis of what a flat tax rate would mean…from a simple hello to a commentary about the role of kindess in a civilized society…oh yes, it pings here, there and everywhere.  I can be maddening – indeed, I used to wonder and even worry about something being wrong with me.  For those of you currently screaming at the screen, “There is something wrong with you!” – yes, I note there likely is.  Alas, I don’t worry about it any longer.

I realize that it can be exhausting for others to keep track of where my mind is going.  I have seen the exasperation on folks’ faces when I am six positions away from the original topic when they remain (like normal folks) on the topic at hand.   I also realize that the concentration deficit has an impact on me.  It takes a whole lot for me to completely immerse in something whether it requires my focused mind or not (hence, I have real difficulty with committing two hours to a movie).  I am the classic example of a “Look over there!” mind.

But I must say, as maddening as it can be some days, I actually like my pinball game mind.  I have learned to use it to my advantage (for the most part) and it takes quite a bit to bore me…there is always another mental tangent to wander off on.  It is a handful to have so much going on inside my head all the time, but I see and think about so much more stuff like this which makes the way I interpret the world that much more dynamic.  Ultimately, I wouldn’t trade it for a simpler game like Connect Four,  Battleship, or Kerplunk…ultimately, it makes me uniquely who I am.

So there you have my self-love entry for my new year’s resolution for this week…I am a pinball wizard. 😉

Day nine hundred and sixty-four of the new forty – obla di obla da

Ms. C

1 Response

  1. Barbara

    My dear, you missed mentioning one aspect of Pinball Brain Syndrome–or perhaps you were not aware that it can be quite contagious. Surely I am not the only one of your readers to find that their own brains have taken up Pinging. I am not the least bit concerned about this condition. I find it to be invigorating, in fact. My kids, on the other hand………

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