Some days the real world is just too much for me. Such is the case as I read about the death of an infant alleged to be from neglect in the Spirit Lake community and the murder of three children in Wisconsin by their father (a Minot man). I hate that these type of things happen. Most of the time, I actively avoid reading the details of these events because I know they will stay with me. This is the reason I could not follow the Casey Anthony case, the reason I can’t watch any investigative reporting that involves children’s deaths, the reason I don’t watch Nancy Grace, and why I don’t watch television shows or movies that involve children being hurt or killed.
I understand that it is a reality of life – there are bad people out there who do bad things and sometimes kids suffer the consequences. Alas, I expose here one of my biggest failings as a human – I do not have sufficient coping skills to allow my mind to linger on these events. They are so heinous to me and once I know of them, they never leave me. And I am not exagerrating – not one bit. I can block many unpleasant things from my mind (obviously as I continue to marry with hope that springs eternal), but I cannot block the things I know about neglect or violence affecting children.
I think I have always had this failing, but it has definitely been magnified since I became a mother. I share this failing with you as you may wonder why I don’t spend more time writing about these type of things given the gammut of other things that get my attention. The simple fact is I just cannot. On occasion I will reference my disgust with such real world events in greater detail, but those occasions are far and few between.
I weep for these children and I feel the anguish of the families that lose them…the world shouldn’t be an unsafe place for children. But it is an unsafe place - that is the reality of the world we live in and frankly folks it sucks.
Day one thousand one hundred and four of the new forty – obla di obla da